Back from Doc

Ok, I'm back from RE office. What to say? The waiting continues. They did see a sac measuring 10MM and he thinks he saw a yolk sac but couldn't find later. Anyway the bad news is the sac is very low in uterus and close to cervix. The cramping I'm having is pushing the sac out of uterus. So there is a good chance that I may pass the tissue today. He gave me a container to get the tissue for testing. There is a very slight chance that this pregnancy may be viable. He put me on Lozengels(sp?) 3X a day and ask to be on bed. Though it wasn't proven that bed rest will help, he said it doesn't hurt and some people say it has helped. So no idea. I have to wait and see...

Let's see what happens... If someone sees this blog, please pray for us. Only god can change this pregnancy a healthy one

Again :(

I haven't updated this blog because nothing was going on.  I thought I would end this blog with a happy note in couple of weeks. Well, Not all the things we think will happen :(. Yes, I found out that I was pregnant with 3 FET on Feb 5th 2009. Happy but cautious b/c of my previous history. Beta was 250 on 10dp6dt. According to RE was very good. Then after 4 days in pins and needles my second beta was 1832 on Feb 9th. Yes, 1832. It has more than qudrapled. So we thought everything is good. Then on thursday(feb 12th) after inserting crinone, I saw blood on the crinone applicator. Freaking out called the doc office. The nurse told me go to bed and not to get up except for bathroom.  She said probably my cervix could have irriated by crinone. So Friday the 13th went without problem. On Saturday I woke up and saw more blood. So panickly called the RE and nurse again told me to stay on bed. But from Friday afternoon I started having cramps on back and abdomon. I told her as well. She said she would call after talking to the doc. She called again and said to start Prometrium 3 times a day to relax. So satyed on bed saturday and sunday. About sunday midday I felt that the cramps are getting worse and I told DH that I'm going to have periods and told him to call the RE. he said even if we call there is nothing they can do and I have a u/s today. So he asked me to stay calm. Then my cramps were gone but by Sunday evening I started passing clots and I knew this was over.  This morning I'm not having any more bleeding but I still have cramps.So the pattern is cramps, bleeding, cramps, bleeding. I found my cervix is open when I have to clean this stupid crinone b/c it was blocking my whole inside. It was yucky. Some internet articles say there still could be a chance. Knowing my luck, I'm not too positive. I'll update after I come back from scan. I'm not sure how I feel right now. I'm more calm(or numb) than before. Probably I got used to this. Or I'm waiting for the doc to say.

So my question to myself for this

1. Is my cervix incompetent?

2. Is something wrong with embryo?

3. Is this happening b/c my cervix got infected?

4. Did I do something wrong?

5. Is it my Karma?

Whatever it is... it is worse to go thru this for 3rd time and I pray noone in this world deserve to go thru this...