CD 2

I got AF last night. I was expecting her on the weekend itself since I ovulated early(on cd 9). So I emailed my RE. Now I have to get my schedule for biopsy.

One of the blogs I visit often is Lisa and Brian. It is very sad to hear that they lost one of their twins Kelsey. How unfair is that? They went thru so much to have those babies just to lose one. I never met them, I don't know them but still I feel that I lost someone I know closely. It is very sad.

Wannabe, are you still around? How are you? What is next?

Emotional again!

I met RE week before last and he said the same. Going for biopsy next month and if it comes back normal do one more FET with crinone(sp?) or go for Fresh with PGD. Or if it abnormal then, goes back for more hormones. I try to be positive and say myself positive stuff but I'm depressed right now. I don't know I feel very empty now and frustrated. I'm scared that I won't be able to have a baby of my own. This is most painful thing that haunts me all thetime :( I wish I'm pregnant right now or have a baby. I don't think I'm asking for anything beyond ordinary. All I want is to have a baby of own. Please god! Give a baby to me.

Journey continues!

Today is CD 4. We will be doing endometrical biopsy this cycle and then one more cycle of FET. If that doesn't work then another fresh cycle + PGD. At this point, RE thinks it could be the embroys. But I doubt it. May be one or two might be bad out of 11. Not all of them will be bad. So I asked for the biopsy. There is another reason. This cycle I used preogestorone supps. I doubt that is good one for me since I got my periods immed after stopping it. On top of it I saw a tiny round grayish material on my pad. That's definetely my baby. So that proves embryo tried to implant but failed. We have an appt on Friday. Let's see what he says.